Remember my car wash moments I use to have.. those have turned into carport moments. I always feel like my neighbors have to think I’m the oddest individual who comes home from work or wherever and sits in her car listening to worship music, reading something, praying, or just simply jotting down ideas. It’s not normal but it works for me. Last night I sat in my car in a pool of tears shouting the lyrics of praise songs because y’all Jesus has been meeting me where I am so evidently lately that I cant shout the praise loud enough. It’s hasn’t been easy and if anything it has been humbling to say the least.
In the last 6 months I’ve started post and stopped post. I’ve jotted ideas but I haven’t followed through. The conviction of writing something that had purpose and wasn’t just to praise me and my work has laid heavy on my heart. Taking the time and effort to make sure what I shared was with the heart of good intent. Y’all this past month though has challenged, encouraged, and humbled me more than I could have ever expected for Morgan Kennedy Miller. I am stubborn, strong willed, and heavily opinionated at times. I’m also passionate about those I love more than I want to admit sometimes for the fear of rejection. But all those fears and doubts have collided this month taking me out of my comfort zone.
As a church we have been walking through a bible study about relational evangelism. Each week has had a different theme such as barriers and how to love lost better just to name a few. I’ve walked away each week more challenged than the last and convicted for sure. I was loving the lost but I wasn’t loving them enough to reach them. I was going through the motions but I wasn’t acting on the motions. I went to work everyday with the mindset of this isn’t what I’m doing for the rest of my life it’s just the paycheck I need to pay the bills and I was missing those around me everyday. It was in the moments of my pastor talking about work being our mission field just as much as a missions trip and a regular customer noticing I was missing my normal chipper attitude that I realized that my love for Jesus was evident even when people didn’t know that that’s where my happiness came from and that if I was going to be a true witness I had to change my attitude all the time.
I have been stretched this month when it comes to comfort. I have to pep talk myself each morning and I have clung to my prayer life (sometimes I’m not the best at that) to stay focused. I don’t want this to be something that challenges me for a month and then when it gets to difficult I walk away from it. I have learned to love those I work with that I everyday went in with the attitude of I wasn’t going to like them. I have learned to affirm and love others in ways I don’t feel comfortable but let’s be honest do we think everything Jesus encountered was comfortable? Sitting with the tax collectors, drinking water from the women at the well, healing the sick. Not one of those task sound easy nor do they sound comfortable yet Jesus did them with honor, grace, mercy, and most importantly love. We’ve been taught time and time again love God love People. If I was going to love God and love others because of Him I decided I had to make that truly evident in everything I did.
It has not been easy and there have been times I have failed but I’m praying for continued strength, humility, and confidence to continue. My heart is so burdened for the lost because I am so stoked for the love of the Lord I have in my heart that I want to share that with everyone I know. To do so though I have to be different and I have to be different everyday because God made me different. He sent his one and only son so that you and I could be free y’all. If I don’t wake up every morning running after that promise and making much of his name than what have I done today?
I’m thankful for the people I get to do life with. I’m thankful the Lord gave me the voice to share all of it with you all. This week I challenge you to dive into the gospels and prepare your hearts for Easter weekend. For those of you plugged in to church or not plugged in, this weekend I hope you find yourself seated in the pews of a church. Go with a heart opened and abandoned for Gods message and be amazed at what he can do for you. I don’t imagine that the Samaritan women would have ever expected for Jesus to meet her where she was and love her through it because I can tell you I never saw it coming for myself. Have faith
Praying for you all as this week as it is just beginning. You are loved, you are important, and you are you!
Love always,
M.K.M
*note that I have linked links for my local church if you are in my neck of the woods along with a link to the gospels as well!
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