Friends the idea of "wishing I knew then what I know now," lays heavy on my heart daily. I think that statement is what drew me to youth ministry. I often note that I wish I would have been as devoted to God and church then as I am now. I am inspired daily by the youngins in my life who wake up each day to seek and glorify God the way so many of them do.
Had I put in half the time and energy I do now Morgan Kennedy Millers life would look a lot different today. What's cool though is even when I didn't want God, God wanted me. He put me through seasons of doubt, frustration, and hurt to get to the season I stand in today. I had started this post and hit a road block diving into Gods word and seeking the words I prayed trying to make sure the words that came out were intentional and God inspired. It was this weekend though that really brought it home to me that I'm exactly where God wants me to be right now.
This past weekend I spent it with 180 of my brothers and sister in Christ ranging from all age groups we came together from Friday to Sunday worshiping God, listening to purposeful driven sermons, and having the opportunity to grow closer with God and with one another.
I was blessed the opportunity to serve and lead an awesome group of sixth and seventh grade girl. When I think back to my time in middle school I cringe at the thought of who I was. I was your typical snobby and privileged preteen girl. I was on the dance team I had my group of friends and I thought I was all that. I claimed to be a Christian yet I didn't make it a priority!
This weekend though as I lead bible studies and spent time with these middle school girls I was encouraged and motivated by them. Pre-teens themselves coming off of a very heavy week of school for one reason or another yet yearning to learn more about God. Listening to the pastors message this weekend about trials and taking those sermons and applying them to their lives. As adults many of us have a hard time doing just that some times. For the longest times I listened to sermons but fought with myself upset that I hadn't been devoted since day one. What I didn't know though was God loved me since day one devoted or not. He knew me and had His plan for me ever before I had a grasp of what I was doing.
These young girls gave me peace this weekend. I may not have done it right when I was their age but now I have the opportunity to pour into them and help in the process of discipling and equipping them for their journey. God gives us the right words, the right moments, and the right people just when we need them most. At times we get blinded from seeing what's coming but that's because we have to have faith in Gods promises. God tells us He will fight for us, protect us, and that He loves us. We must have faith in those promises. (Which faith is a whole other topic we can get into but not today!) I'm thankful for those girls and I'm thankful for the leadership of my church's youth group and that I'm given the opportunity to be a part of such a wonderful group. I'm thankful that they entrust me with groups to lead and that they allot me the opportunities to grow the relationships with these young kids and not only pour into them but have them pour into me their knowledge and wisdom.
Exodus 14:14
••The Lord will fight for you; you need only to be still ••
Sometimes when we close our mouths and listen instead of speak we have the ability to see Gods work. I still battle with many different insecurities about what I'm doing and where I'm at. This weekend though was an encouraging step in this seasons journey. I was able to end it with another car wash moment today and I'm challenging myself in this coming week:
// I'm challenging myself to listen more than I speak this week. I'm challenging myself to not need others validation in my life. I'm challenging myself to seek Gods faithfulness and understand that faith and action are what I need most right now. I'm challenging myself to make time for me this week. //
These car wash moments are really doing a work in me. As we enter this new week I challenge you to look at yourself and determine what can you start doing more of this week? We don't need to wait for then we need to start NOW. Stop carrying the burdens of the past and start working for today. I pray that you find that peace this week as in every week.
X.O,
M.K.M
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