What comforts you? Is it some home cooked food? A cozy blanket? A conversation with your mom? Have you become complacent to your comfort? Have you allowed your comfort to intercede with the plan God has for you?
Today I'm talking about comfort on a spiritual level and a personal one.
Last night surrounded by kids that inspire me, challenge me, and encourage me it hit me like a ton of bricks. I sat and listened while they raised their hands and said their prayer request and struggles. So transparent, raw, and authentic yet I couldn't bring myself to put out loud into words my struggle. I couldn't verbalize with my struggle of complacency and comfort because that then made it real. It would then put it into perspective that I was digging my heels in against God when I need to be standing beside Him not resisting Him.
"For the waywardness of the simple will kill them, and the complacency of fools will destroy them." Proverbs 1:32
2 years ago God called me away from my plan and I went kicking and screaming. Scared of what was to come I moved home. Left my friends, work, and fun behind to follow where I felt God was wanting me. Lately though I've started to feel that I'm called for more but I'm not following because I like where I am. I like that my family is around the corner, I like my hometown spots, and I love my church family. I feel like God needed me to come home and hit the recharge button and now it's time to get back out there. I have the opportunity to be the hands and feet of God I shouldn't take that responsibility lightly and I surely shouldn't let it pass me by.
This week as I've joined the youth in D.C. For missions work the burden has laid more on my heart that I'm not doing enough. I'm not pushing myself enough nor bringing myself outside of my comfort zone. When I don't I do an injustice to my fellow brothers and sisters in Christ but more importantly to God. God gives us all the tools we need personally to further His kingdom and honestly here lately I don't feel I have fulfilled Him by using mine.
Where my exact call is at this moment I couldn't tell you. What I can share though is that I know God wants more of me. He wants my full trust, He wants my uncomfortablity, He wants my heart. Prayer is my answer right now. Gods plan will be unveiled through my prayer life and obedience to Him.
I was listening to the new hillsong album this week and some lyrics just stood out, laid on my heart, and convicted me:
If the stars were made to worship so will I
If the mountains bow in reverence so will I
If the oceans roar Your greatness so will I
For if everything exists to lift You high so will I
If the wind goes where You send it so will I
If the rocks cry out in silence so will I
If the sum of all our praises still falls shy
Then we’ll sing again a hundred billion times
God of salvation
You chased down my heart
Through all of my failure and pride
On a hill You created
The light of the world
Abandoned in darkness to die
And as You speak
A hundred billion failures disappear
Where You lost Your life so I could find it here
If You left the grave behind You so will I
I can see Your heart in everything You’ve done
Every part designed in a work of art called love
If You gladly chose surrender so will I
I can see Your heart
Eight billion different ways
Every precious one
A child You died to save
If You gave Your life to love them so will I
I haven't worshipped God the way I should. I haven't lifted His name high the way I can. It's been said a million times but He sent His one and only son to die. We have a hope and joy because of Him. My worship doesn't have to come on Sunday mornings and Wednesday evenings. Worship is in your car, your home, work, with friends, wherever the day takes you. So as this week grows closer to an end I'm calling myself out but I'm also challenging myself to listen to Gods call and desire for me. I ask for your prayers and wisdom as well. I thrive on conversation. I would love to hear your thoughts and even your struggles. You can call, text, or email me I would love to hear from you.
Y'all God is good. He is so so good.
X.O.,
M.K.M
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